Follow along the crazy path that my husband and I never expected to take while trying to conceive our first baby.


OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!

Um, it appears that I am pregnant :) Three tests have now confirmed it. SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!

More details to come- once I can settle down and stop freaking out long enough to type!! I got my BFP at 12 DPO, after 100% sure it would be a negative!


The 2WW and I Do Not Get Along

I am so incredibly inpatient. This TTC thing for over a year now is so not my thing, and each month having to go through the 2WW is absolutely torturous! This one especially is horrific as I feel so hopeful for this month, I just wish I could speed up time!

So I am currently 10dpo today and I feel like I may go CRAZY! Being on Progesterone suppositories makes my body act like it is in PMS-mode. It can result in tiredness, mood swings, sore breasts, sore back... basically every pregnancy symptom is mimicked through Proegesterone. Awesome- makes me really over-over analyze each symptom now! (Is this a possible early pregnancy sign? Is this a Progesterone only sign? Could it be both?......).

I have been exhausted beyond belief. For the past four days (I started Progesterone 3 days ago) I honestly feel that I could go to bed at 6pm, and sleep in until noon. I am beat. I can hardly stay awake at work and during my 40 minute communte I feel as though I miught fall asleep. I'm so tired it's to the point I feel that I may have the flu. Even now sitting here typing this, I can barely hold my head up and I have a huge hand print on my face from holding my cheek up.

My back is also killlling me. It hurts so bad that I am considering getting a massage, something I have never done nor ever wanted to do (other people touching me is so not my thing). But everyday, it aches and aches. I can't stand it!

I also keep having dull pains that last a few seconds where my right and left ovary would be. They come and go and are nothing severe, but I have had these since ovulation. Because I spend hours researching early pregnancy symptoms, this leads me to believe something is going on in there.

I also have cold-like symptoms, another early pregnancy sign. My nose gets stuffed up out of nowhere and it will just start running for no reason. Today my eyes just started watering out of nowhere and haven't since! So weird.

My boobs are tender, but I kind of attribute that one for sure to the Progesterone as I only had sore boobs once I started taking it.

Deep down, my gut is telling me I am not pregnant this time. However, I am having signs that I have never had before, and I have seen so many negative tests over the past year, that I feel they are kind of embedded in my brain. I do feel hopeful for this month and feel that I actually have a fair shot at this month! I know everything worked right right up until the sperm met the egg- hopefully that worked perfectly!

I am doing my best to hold out until the 21st to test as it will be 14dpo. Ugh, I don't know what to do with myself until then! I would love to bnever take Femara again, never see my RE again (although I love that place so much I wiash I could go there for every medical iussue). Plus, I would LOVE my baby to be due on July 30th. I want a summer baby so badly.

Time will tell.... Now back to looking at TTC blogs, community boards, and other things on the internet.

November is Brought to you by the Word: Va-Jay-Jay

So I have a lot of updates to give as I have been super busy the past few weeks and have not been able to just sit down, relx, and write on my blog. Here is a recap of the last couple of weeks:

1) I finished my first round of Femara, and it worked well. I went in on cycle day 12 for a vaginal ultrasound to see if Femara had worked. My husband came with me to this appointment, and we were able to see that I had two follicles on my left ovary and one on my right that would result in ovulation. The doctor was so friendly and kind and suggested that I would most likely ovulate and see a positive OPK in three or four days. So if this cycle works- we saw our baby as a little follicle- so precious!

2) Sure enough, three days later on Monday November 7th, I had a positive OPK. At first I wasn't sure if it was positive, as it was almost darker than the control line, but upon further inspection and reading the booklet that came with the tests, it was a positive. That little OPK sat on my kitchen table for about a week. I was so excited it was FINALLY positive! I took pictures of it, sent it to my best friend and my husband, and then called and had a lengthy chat about it with my best friend and my best TTC supporter. I was ecstatic. That day, I also had a small amount of EWCM in my panties, so it all matched up!

3) So desperate times call for desperate measures. I bought Soft Cups to use this cycle. Inserting things into my va-jay-jay (besides a tampon) is waaay waaay waaay out of my comfort zone. But I want a baby more than anything, and Soft Cups sure seem to have a good reputation in the TTC community, so I bought them. I seriously cannot believe people use these things for their period! As a TTC tool, awesome, in place of a tampon- not so much. My hubby and I did the deed that night and then I placed one of those cups in. I was so nervous about it in there that I took it out after three hours. And taking it out is 100 times worse than putting it in!

4) So for the next three days straight we got busy! I think my husband was so over having sex with me by then as he worked long days each day of my fertile window and came home to me, who insisted on fooling around. But he was a good sport! The Soft Cups were used each time and eventually I just left them in all night. I feel so confident that we hit our fertile window perfectly, and I did my best to make sure that the sperm was as close to my cervix as possible. Ok, confession: Soft Cups are not that bad.

5) On Novemeber 12th, I went in for a Progesterone blood draw to see where my levels were at. I went in 5dpo instead of 7dpo because historically, I always get my period 9-10 dpo. I got my results back that day (see, my RE's office is just amazing! I love this place). My levels were at 11, and the nurse said that is great as they want to see them above 10. Well that didn't reassure me much as I know that progesterone levels can ebb and flow. I would have felt better if my levels were a 20 or something!

6) On Monday November 14th, I spoke to a nurse at my RE's office and asked her if I could PLEASE be prescribed Progesterone supplements as I was really worried that if my egg was fertilized, it would not be able to implant due to getting my period always 9-10dpo. The nurse prescribed me a month supply of progesterone suppositories.

7) back to the monthly theme- I now insert a pill into my va-jay-jay each night before bed. Gosh, the crazy things I will do to get pregnant! The pill is not that bad, and I just make sure to wear a pantyliner. It seems that most of the pill gets absorbed by my body as I have very little discharge, which is nice. I have read stories of people who have to insert two pills a day, so I am thankful I just have to do it once.

8) Now I have to wait to test until the 21st, which seems so so so incredibly far away!